My face was pink with fear, a big bag was dangling on my shoulders, hair nicely combed, pant shirt nicely ironed.
“Don’t make fool of yourself and you don't know me there, okay.... got it”. my cousin said.
I nodded for the sound of “yes”.
As I entered the class I saw a huge hall littered with wooden chairs arranged in pairs and we were supposed to have our introduction class. Yes, it was my first day at Medical school. I entered this huge hall with posters of human body, skeleton and projectors. I m not that big and noticeable so i zigzagged through the live bodies, talking, gossiping and staring. I looked for the niche and tried to put my behind on a vacant seat but a voice came only to tell me that the place is taken. to my utter amusement all the seats were taken or blocked for someone. I guess no one wanted me.
Exasperated and tired, I tumbled here and there but no one seemed to be willing to give me a seat.
I decided that I’ll sit on the floor near the Professors desk as no one wanted to give me a seat. I dropped my lean body on the floor near the first row and amazingly everyone started staring as if I’m an untouchable. I kept my head down and i could feel my cheeks getting pink.
“Why are you sitting down there, there are plenty of seats?” the voice woke me from from my day dreams.
“No seat sir, I blurted.
Somehow I got the seat and everything went well.... Well, at least for a day.
So here I was, first day at my college.
No seat to sit
No new friends to talk.
Yet the dusk seemed to be clear.
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“Hi Kumar, Right?” a voice from the car came.
He was Professor Dr. Sanjeev who was our taking our Anatomy class.
“Yes, sir Karan Dev Kumar Sindhi, I humbly said.
“Well, Kumar it is for me......, come hop in” He signaled for the sign of getting in the car.
“No thanks sir, I’ll manage” , I said.
“Come in or you are out of my class for one week” He said.
I silently sat in the car, not knowing what to say or to say nothing at all. I found him staring at me many time. I also noticed how handsome he was. His grey eyes and grey black hair made him look very good.
We didn't speak too much also and we parted at the car parking. I returned to the loaded hall with students and this continued for many days, rather months.
“Kumar, I need to see you in my office.” Dr. Sanjeev said.
So I went to his office.
“Kumar, you are good in, all the other subjects but when it comes to Ana [Anatomy) why you lag behind.”, he asked.
So we spoke for few min and it was finalized that I will go to his home on weekends for some extra lessons.
“Don’t lag behind, otherwise you’ll have lot of trouble during practicals.”
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So it started every weekend.. those two hours were amazing. It was the first time that I had seen him so close, in jeans T’s in friendly way. I got used to being with him.
I used to wait for weekend badly and he used to call me every Saturday morning to remind me. It was amazing.
One day it was raining very heavily so he asked me to stay over and moreover his wife was out of town.
After studying, we ate and went to sleep in different rooms. The night roared badly, the lightning was horrendous. I could see all sort of dragons and souls and animals. I went up and knocked on Dr. Sanjeev’s door.
“Sir, can’t sleep, I’m scared” I said softly.
And he replied promptly, “ Come in.
So I dropped my lean body beside his on a double bed. I felt so at ease with him around me. I could hear his breath, the rise and fall of his chest and was mesmerized with his body scent.
As some time went by, I just put my hand on his chest. I though that he was asleep so I tried moving my hand over his body. Suddenly he opened his eyes and turned and kissed me.
I was stupefied but It shook my entire body. I softly removed his shirt and he also undressed me.
He was such a good kisser and his grey eyes were killing me gently. We were like tangled wires all night, chest on chest, legs between legs, body rubbing harshly, heart beating fast, breath too heavy.
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That was the moment I craved for, they body I always wanted.
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Now every weekend became too important for both of us. We craved for it.
Every second was worth it.. We knew each others bodies from head to toe.
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One day I awoke in tears and could not sleep no more... The dusk seemed to be so far and the sounds of night began to thicken. Everything started fading... My heart beating so fast... I could see the red light on my mobile blinking....
I opened it to find a new text at 2 am..... It was from Dr. Sanjeev
“I will always love you”. It said.
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I tried his number 100 times but it was off. I planned on not speaking to him forever for doing this to me. Then again in the morning I went to my class past those zigzagged chairs those stares and the glances. As I strolled through the crowd an announcement came on the speakers.
“ Today will be declared as holiday due to sudden demise or Dr. Sanjeev in a fatal car accident”
I Slapped my self for getting out of the reverie, the past and present appeared to be one like a strange dream; yet it was not so much a dream as life itself, a frigid reality...
I screamed and fainted....and saw him flying with wings.. saying I love you and there I was lying on the floor crying, sobbing and grasping for air.
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