time kept rolling by,
years went flying by, with a rapid stain…left..carved..
time and heart…stained…
and now the youth seems…..
at a distant horizon !
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the life seemed salacious,
wandering nearby..
moving slowly… crawling…laughing..
among the "sins", the lusts..
subliminally indifferent,
to everything…
to me… to you.. to youth !
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Sigh!
my mind zigzags,
forgets the pain, curses, the yelling…
reminisces over your scent,
and sinks with it….ha ha!
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i spend my life in disdain
longing for a body..
grasping for air,
thirsting for lips, the heartbeat…
knowing.. that there will neither be a kiss or a heartbeat…
beating for me….for which i cannot choose but crave…
Pheww!
i am sitting again…crying.. sobbing.. internally
yet i am smiling…
watching TV on my couch again!
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Thats my life, and i m wandering again..
that my yearning will not go waste.
that love can not satiate…..
