As my life grows by,
my heart reverberates vaguely,
eyes wander inquiringly—
I expected to hear loud explosions
of your heartbeat… your artificial smile,
witness the blue cigarette smoke curling,
masquerading your face…
You devoured me… with your artificial smile,
the blue smoke, your breath, engulfed me…
the hatred and love in your blue eyes
in the chilly winter day……. ahhhhhhhh!
The cold still travels with me
it envelopes like a shell,
Yes, its a dreary life… and yet….
I think i’ve hardly lived….
despised my family, left my responsibilities…
but in these final moments,
when life is at the verge of engulfing me…
I am again up for sale—
I wish someone had a proposition.
Duh!