It was a long time ago, when I was quiet young... growing into puberty… changes occurring all over the body… scared and amazed though with the wide changes occurring, golden hair growing over the groin, very silky, hair coming under the armpits, moustaches and light brown beard scattered very lightly on the face. I started to feel different about myself, my cousins and friends used to read so called “ MASTRAM KI KAHANIYAN”, and DEBONAIRS, always talking about the girls, sex, boobs etc, but I was different in every respect, at that time I had no idea whatsoever was going on, but surely something was wrong I thought, I used to get errection in the class when I saw my mathematics teacher, so now a new problem aroused, had to wear an underwear too, so that my errection could be controlled.
On my 14th birthday I was really happy as I was getting out of the military school and going to live with my relatives in Kangra, very happy and very scared , I had memories of me visiting my relatives and having a crush on my eldest cousin, he was way older then me may be 15 or so yrs older…but so handsome and rugged, his face pretty chiseled and jagged, and he was very kind to me and friendly as well, used to take me out for movies, give me presents and let me sleep in his room with him, I liked everything about him but the most scary part was when he told me the stories of monsters at night…. That lead to the phobia of ghosts in me and I found myself waking up screaming at night and crying out his name... as if he was the monster. Sometimes my relatives used to get sick of my raucous screaming.
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This is great! U write very well..i love so many pnhrases in this story...:the room had its secrets".
ReplyDeletevery nice blog..keep it up
Rgds
yes. a very nice sotry indeed(if that is your own.)
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all i wanna say is be happy and dont be sad about being gay.
i m following your blog now. enjoy
Have read all the stories and essays on your blog, and found this one the most satisfying.
ReplyDeleteThe intense straightforwardness of your writing doesn't mar the vulnerability of your feelings and emotions. Some paragraphs make for some veeeeery powerful reading.
Keep it up!!!
There are two points I'd like to make:
1.- Your typing is sloppy. In several instances I don't get the impression we're dealing with voluntary misspelling. I get the feeling that it was just plain sloppy typing.
2.- You have to discipline and be more systematic in your use of Indian expressions and idioms. Have a look at the following blog:
Economist.com/blogs/johnson
It considers the great variety of language, both spoken and written, and the effects of its uses and abuses around the world. You might profit from others experience.
Once again, CONGRATULATIONS!!!! a veeeeery good first stab at writing.
Fernando