A Reverie--- from the past!

What are Words?
To me, Words are an inseparable part of my life,
Phthisical paradigm, an alter ego.

What are words?
Words as conventionally detrimental as they
ought to have moved you into the oblivion,
as I set them down
the irony of their falseness and yet, their reality haunts me!

I know my life with your was never safe,
An enigma, a slow death...........!
I was dead for few months.


but i have awaken now...like a phoenix.. form the ashes of your love!
I saw, I felt, plain virtues in a man, whose
miniature vices could no longer harm me, you are
a daylight ravager, the robber of predictabilities

living with you was never safe, I sat enclosed
in a mist of uncertainty, I was blinded by your love,
I still am.... but something has changed in me,
something is not the same now.

But still I covet for your body and your love.
The love still wakes me at night....heavily sweating..
with a tumultuous uproar.



smoldering with phantasmagoria, an alien faith,
its liturgy and rites abhorrent, incorrigible perversity,
whatever was declared to be truth; a shameful fakery;


And now I know ..I am only bored ..
and yes... i m still sitting on my couch...smiling...
again a shameful fakery........